[From Thoughts to Words...]
Both the sane & its counterpartDon't Say I Didn't Warn You!!
2007-01-29
So here it is...time for a rant...forewarning...
So I know I am not the first to think any of this, and I know it is not the end of the world. I love my family, don't get me wrong; they mean more to me than anything. However, I don't think I can live with them anymore. I do everything I can to prove myself to them and too often I feel I get nothing in return. They take things I say to them to build a confidence in them, and turn them against me. I always have a lot on my mind and too often have no one I feel I can say it to. So I mentioned to my mother that I wanted to talk to someone. Now anytime I have a disagreement with her or other in my family, or just have a concern, she tells me how I can just talk to this guy. Again, don't get me wrong, I want to talk, everyone needs some nonpartial party to talk to, but I do not EVER want it to be used against me. That is beyond wrong. I came home to figure things out because thing at my previous school were beyond clearly not working out for me. Coming home was supposed to be helpful, not a hinderance. I just wish I knew more of what I wanted out of life. Then again I also wish I didn't try to hard to make others happy. I am happy when I see others happy, so I am considering schools that would make my family happy. I know I am backtracking slightly here. But it makes even less sense in my head. Who knows...I don't know what to do, and I have to finish orgainizing my room, cause it is going to be a few hours and I think I just need to get my mind off of things for a while. (yeah right...that would be nice) Did I mention I think way too much??? I didn't? Okay...well I think too much.
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